A letter from Apr 7th, 2022

Dear Future Me, Happy birthday, love, you made it to yet another year! Congratulations baby. your fricken 18 a whole *** adult. God****. That's just crazy to me. Moving on, I hope you are okay on this difficult day. I hope that this year is different, and there's nothing I can do but hope. I hope that mom gave up on trying to ignore your special day, I hope your family acknowledged that it's your birthday and actually wished you it, but if they didn't I know dang well Tahani and Ohla didn't disappoint. they are the best. They make this world worth living in and quite bearable. I know that you are fighting those years like you do every year but I hope you know that it's not worth all that, these material things are not going to help you in the future it only makes you more vulnerable and makes your day a bit less special, so on this special day, let go. let go of the past and live in the now because now I'm history and I think it is better if I stay this way because it only makes you sadder when you think of the past. what happened in the past stays in the past baby. I just know you can do great things, and you will get where you need to get just be patient and make lots of prayers and it will all be worth it in the end. I hope you know how much you mean to me baby girl, you shine in this dim world even when you are dying inside. keep your light. Your light is what separates you from the rest. I love you and I'm forever proud of you. Love, you from the past :)