A nostalgic letter about time and destiny and how they are tied together.

These days I've been thinking so much about future and what lies behind me as well. I lost touch with people and, now that I saw one of them again, memories and feelings can't stop coming back to my mind. It's funny how sometimes you think you forgot someone and moved on, but deep inside you still feel that part of your heart will always belong there. The problem, though, is that outside conditions maybe don't match with the situations you imagine are supposed to happen. I think the odds must be all in our favor in order for anything to take place and actually BE, exist truly and meaningfully. Time can turn close people apart, and time has this particular way of telling us how things got distant and unreal, without saying a word. You only realize it's its fault when you look where you are now, and what had happened until the present day to make everything so the way it is. You picture this situation in your mind and, as time, this amazingly good and terrible factor, passes by, it drives you away from the imagination you had, and it also leads you towards other directions. It is only when you face the past eye-to-eye that you remember that those colored dreams became black and white memories of illusions that could once have became true, if time hadn't passed, and if life hadn't happened. Indeed, it's not but time. Destiny, perhaps I can call it that way, also affects all of our courses as human beings. You can never explain why you picked that moment to act in such a uncharacteristic way of yours, leading to a path that turned into the life you are leaving today. You can't understand why that person had to appear near you in such a specific moment and started chatting with you. But maybe that is the beauty of all of it. Time can undo things. It can destroy ties and it can make us suffer so much. But, at the same time, the destiny, the future, can take us to somewhere so beautiful and unexpected, making us understand the perks of passing through everything we'd faced until now that has hurt us so much. The pain can remain. It can take years to pass. You will look back and you will, still, wonder why, and you can try to make an effort to change it. However, the destiny is the one that will decide what is worthy to be changed. I look at my past and there are explanations I am still trying to find. I look at my future and there are so many questions and blank spaces. But I've already realized why some of the things I've passed through in the past happened, and how they made a difference in changing the person I was, and turning me into the person I am, and how without them, so many feelings, resolutions, actions and crisis would have been unexplained. I think the most important thing for now is to learn how to move on, and learn how to take time's actions and turn them into good for yourself. You should learn how to heal yourself. Understand that maybe that distance was meant to be, and that being together would have brought you bad energy - worry, rebellion, not corresponded feelings, uncertainty. Persons with an aura that doesn't match with ours aren't supposed to be with us. People should add to each other, should push each other forward. If one is jamming you and revealing your bad side as an individual, then time has acted correctly, and did nothing but a favor to you. So embrace time's actions. Embrace the pain! Pain makes you grow, and makes you see things through another point of view. If destiny showed you signs and different paths to follow, why not take the chance? What is in there to loose? In the one and only life we have, we are meant to learn and to keep walking. Don't you ever stop. The more you live and walk, the more you see there are so many wonders out there to keep one tiny annoyance in your head. Destiny will do its part, and as soon as you realize, if things aren't making sense, they will start to make. Don't underestimate the value of the ones beside you right now. Showing the weakness of the past doesn't undermine the strength of the present, of what was brought by destiny, by kharma. If it makes your eyes shine, it is because it is meant to be. If when you think of it today, you smile, then hold on tight to it. Happiness can help not only you heal your wound, but bring you more joy than you'd ever imagine. Feeling that someone likes you and appreciates being with you, and being able to correspond it with your soul, is one of the biggest proofs that what is meant to be, will be, and that life is like an arrow: when its pushing you back with difficulties, it is because it will soon launch you into something greater. The songs that couldn't come out of my mind while writing this letter: "We're searching for meaning/ But are we all lost stars/ Trying to light up the dark" "And I wanna kiss you/ Make you feel alright/ I am just so tired/ To share my nights/ I wanna cry and I wanna love/ But all my tears have been used up" "Escuto o meu coração/Pois a minha razão muitas vezes atrapalha o meu pensar"