future me

Dear FutureMe, I sincerely hope that you've realized by now how great life would be if you just get off your ass and go for what you want. If not, you're just as pathetic as I am in this moment. Future me, I know you're probably thinking, "manohman, i wish there was such thing as a PastMe.org, so I could tell Past me not to be such an idiot and keep making the same mistake over and over again. Just calm down, lady. Right now I fully realize the cycle that I'm in. I'm not ready to modify that in the least. I hope to bajeebus that you are, though. I recently chopped off all my hair. I like it. Do you still like it, or did you resort back to the hippie hair? I'm getting dad's initials tattooed on the inside of my arm next thursday. How do you feel about that tattoo now? at least its not the david bowie tattoo..right? I'm becomign someone new. Maybe its because all my friends are moving on with their lives and planning bright futures whereas mine is still bleak and not very promising. Next year doesn't look too great. I will be lonely, I know that much. Another year of high school on top of the four I already have already drives me insane, and I'm not even living it yet. Do you have actual friends, Future Me? Its fine if you don't. Pick up the canvas again, maybe, like in the old lonely days. Remember this moment in time. Remember how honest you were with yourself; with everyone around you. Don't fade into the norm. Don't do it. I hope you're doing something that scares the shit out of you. I hope that you are making a change drastic enough to put a smile on your face. Seeing as how you are also 19 now, I hope you are drinking your balls off. Thats another thing - weed? Please tell me you're not involved with it anymore. FutureMe, I gotta run. I hope you know how much I look forward to meeting you. I hope that you are seasoned and wise and most of all HAPPY with all that has occurred this past year. Good luck, and good riddance that you are no longer me. the best is yet to come. Past Me