A letter from Jul 26th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, now I mean; I always believed that people will be good; how can they be bad when we are kind to them how can they be bad or not help when we help them how can they leave when they ones promised and stood as a mirror for ourselves how can they easily forget when I wrote emails everyday to her no one is good; no one I don't know; I understood it within last 2 weeks all people just stay for their gain; when they realize someone is better they forget about someone who had been their with her and made her feel that she is valued, some people know to butter very well, and might took kindness for granted only to use it in their favor, he taught me to never ever believe in words and I haven't met anyone who has valued me and considered losing me might have a great impact on their life and that only makes me conclude that our life is ours; the way we love ourselves will be the way others love us; even if we have worked hard and gave everything for something there will be people who say that you were doing it wrong until now, and we might wonder to how much more do they expect; when you see people doing little to nothing living off their life and gaining popularity, when you see that your siblings are praised as they are brave than the elder one, she somehow score some marks only because she works day and night; but the younger ones are brave they don't even study but still score good. words has the power to pierce ones soul; they can also work like magic; but it can make us believe that truth is what they say. the best and kindest souls threw the worse on me; people are busy but priorities do matter I used to believe in a sentence that I made by myself when I was in 10th grade that emotions are to be expressed; there is no point in hiding ones emotion; if a father loves his sun; you can't put him in hell and they I secretly love him or he can't argue that I love him but I don't know to show that; I am dumb and stupid; I always get angry but that's because I only know to showcase love as that here is where I fail; where I don't understand that if someone showcasing anger and care simultaneously is actually a good person; when a person hurt me I rarely conclude it as they might be intentional; but most times; they are intentional you don't need the people who don't need you; I can't get to a conclusion to how, people can treat me, have they never valued me or was it all just illusion? was it all just my thoughts? just my glorification? or infatuation? treat every one as what they deserve; if they treat you like **** do the same to them; you don't need sympathy in rl