A letter from Apr 25, 2023

Dear FutureMe, this is a letter i wish i could've sent to [redacted] they day i found out he liked me. i typed it all in his dms but i never hit send. it's april 25th, an entire month before school ends. just tell me if anything happened after. here goes nothing. "i know that you ||like me|| but whhyyyyyyyy wont you just TELL ME like im not gonna BITE YOU but instead you tell your best friend instead of me like dude i get it if you have a history of rejection/getting rejected (prolly w/ your ex) but even tho i know parts of it that you dont know that **I** know still! how do you have the nerve to be so flirtarious with me on a daily basis but you cant use your words to tell me that you like me. make it make sense like actually all you ahve to do is just say those three words. and even when i *DO* reject you (now THATS inevitable) i will literally still congratulate u on the fact that u still told me. like, thats a big boy move right there. however, i still do wanna tell u that i never really stopped being infatuated with you. but your unwillingness to tell me quite literally drowns it out. one of these days, when we're walking out lunch and you say some line im finna be like "why, you like me?" to your face while julian gon prolly drop dead and be like "WOAHH ITS THE BIG ONE! ITS THE BIG ONE! WILL HE SHOOT? WILL HE CONFESS? WILL HE-" and then have a face of mere disappointment at the fact that you literally will deny it or be nervous AGAIN. maybe he's afraid of ruining the friendship (it wont) but i will definitely interview you on how long! was the date really a friend date! do you talk about me to your other friends! all that jazz bc i wanna know **everything.** on the other hand, just wanna let you know that even IM rooting for you just so you can tell me. i really appreciate the fact that i was someone you found worthy of being genuinely attracted to (or is it just physical) OH and to add on to the questions ima ask you, "WHY are you attracted to me? because you think im pretty? i mean, you did say 'she's not cute, shes beautiful'" which warmed my heart. and when you DID say you thought my name was beautiful too. appreciated it. but i think the ending factor is that if you had told me months prior when i STARTED really suspecting it, i definitely would've wanted to try something with you. but rn its just an ego boost and youve missed your mark! anyways, ig it was nice doing all that physical crap with you, i just wish you would still be more.. vocal about it instead of all that physical touch and stuff. the hand holding? the arms around shoulders, you always finding some reason to touch me? well, if you told me about how much you really liked being with me, i would reciprocate those feelings back and it could turn into something genuine. really ticked off that i learned that you officially liked me through your... best friend. i really like you [redacted], just maybe not now. or ever possibly. i like you a lot actually, but i dont consider you dateable for two reasons that ill explain to you if you :rofl: uhhh bye bye! hit unsent at 6:38 pm, april 25th 2023."