A letter from Sep 25, 2023

Hey 23, Happy 25th birthday!! I hope you're taking this day to yourself, to pat yourself on the back on the unbelievable achievements you've managed to do between myself and you as of now. I know progress might feel slow and frustrating but if you look to the past and look at things as of now. The so called slow progress is often a massive improvement that you dont realize right away. Despite any fustrating feeling you might be experiencing in this present time. Remember of all that you've overcome with will, might and strength. courage even. I will always be proud of you, no question asked. no doubt needed. even if you made any huge mistakes. we got this. Life doesnt end or comes into doomed path just because of choices we made. Keep our chin up and keep going. Today...I broke up with her. This sucks huge time, but better now than later down the path when all emotions get too tangled into hopeless relationship. I feel like I'm still learning and figuring stuff out one day at time. Sometime I feel wise, but sometimes I goof'ed up and I just dont know. I feel like teenager trying to understand life when I mess up with anything. But hey, thats life. we cannot have the good without the bad, we cannot understand things without failing and making mistakes. as Kino Tarot said...at the end of day we had pure intentions and thats what matters....If you haven't watched her tarot videos in awhile. perhaps give it a shot and see what messages your spirit teams wish to send ur way. I'm still working full time at that nurse home. my solar return warned me that i sucks at confrontation this year but I think thats something that i have to force myself through. I've been considering cutting down hours at nurse home atleast for a bit. Ive been feeling burnt out lately. Im still trying to force myself out of comfort zone as my 2023 resolution. My new challenges would be crocheting, trying to get Nepticae up and running properly, and perhaps if I have enough time, to finally DM an one shot. Did I finish that crochet bag? (I havent gotten the crochet equipment yet) How's Nepticae doing? or Did we drop that or is it successful? Did we managed to run an one shot or perhaps a campaign? At this time I'm currently still in that first ongoing dnd campaign with super awesome group of people. Sad-Freeze-*****...Did we managed to finish that campaign or is it still on going? How is our character, Chiron doing? Any hilarious moments? I will never forget that Chiron set an enemy's foot on fire during surprise attack and Zenjena commanded the enemy to halt....and he died from feet on fire....WTF is that logic 🤣🤣🤣 If you still vibe with your group, remind them of this...LOL. Have I got the chance to write and draw more? I wanted to execrise more and am trying to do stuff like squatting and those that doesn't require gym. Have we made progress on this? In general, Im trying, and I'm not about to give up. I'm stubborn and determined. Can't believe we're already 1/4 through life....hows that impending quarter life crisis huhuhuh? haha. Celebrate hard! Party on! Have fun! Loosen up! No stressing during your birthday!! I forbid it! You deserve this fun break for yourself. Dont forget to take proper selfie for your birthday. With so much love and joy, Your recently turned 24 yrs old past self, 23 p.s. I don't wanna ask because I dont know if I achieved this before my 25th but I'm trying my best....car?? Ive saved 3,800 rn. I hope we get there...if not yet, then soon? p.p.s. what is our sleep schedule like nowaday? I know my sleep patterns changed alot from when I was younger. Im now cursed to wake up before 9am always, no matter how much sleep I got the night before. and is weak to falling into 3 hours nap in the afternoon without effort....guess i'm both morning and night person now...is that still the case in the future? p.p.p.s i just found out that p.s. means post script. i nearly sent this letter with post script script...oops haha. p.p.p.p.s. i hope this extra comment is last one but, even though I broke up with her, this breakup sucks!! im all sad on inside. idk if its pms emotions or im just legit sad about this. I geninuely hope that she figures out that she deserve a relationship that loves her wholly for her and in that relationship she is not just seeking to just love and to be loved for sake of validation bc i did get that vibes that she loved me for this lovely dovey relationship but...i dont think she put in real effort to get know me or share information about herself. Remember my future self, remember that we deserve nothing but the best in love, and if we wait a bit more, all the power to us. Being single is far easier than trying to figure how relationship work when your desires and their desires arent sastified. Take your time, as much as you need.