A letter from yourself - 12/15/14

Dear FutureMe, I'm writing you this letter at what feels like a really rough time in my life. I'm 28 years old and I feel like I'm 24. I'm single and in the same job I've had since I was young and 22. I feel like I'm on the cusp of some great life change, but I just can't seem to get over the tip of the hill. I so desperately want that moment of free-fall...in my career, my love life everything. The saddest/hardest part is I have a great group of friends and I live in a beautiful city. I definitely don't take this for granted...in many ways I am having the time of my life. Other than this year taking a tole on my romantic emotions, I really can't complain. I look around though and I see my friends getting married & moving into houses & having babies and I guess in some ways I envy that security. I also mostly just want that person to share my life with, but in a lot of ways I question if I'm ready for that. Am I mature enough to take that next step? I think people think I'm just this free-spirited party girl that wants to always have a good time, but I really do want more than that. I always want meaning & depth in my life. I hope that I eventually get over this hill & find what I'm searching for. Not a greener pasture perse but an older & wiser version of my current happy self. It may sound selfish, but I really do want the adventure & security. I hope I find a man who sees the beauty in me & loves me despite my flaws. I hope I find a man whom I truly love & don't feel inferior or superior to. I hope when you're reading this you are next to that equal companion that man who is both your strength & your best friend. I also hope that when you read this you feel more personally & financially stable. I hope you feel at peace with yourself & that some or many of your insecurities have dissipated. I know my future self would probably tell me now is the time. Now is the time to grow up & to make changes. Maybe I wasn't ready before...but now I am. I hope my future self is proud.