Happy New Year 2017

Dear Jahan, So, 2015 has been probably the most exciting year of my life and has been quite eventful too. I won't call the best year of my life as of yet- cause I'll make that decision on my death bed. Well, to start things off I started off my YouTube channel and I have currently uploaded about nine videos, among which seven are anime reviews. My first video titled 'Top 7 Favourite Reverse Harem Anime' has over 50K views which I can't believe I manage to get. I had no idea that video would become popular and I wonder if the rest of my videos will receive the same amount of attention. My most watched review is 'Rosario+Vampire' which is not surprising because I do make a lot of jokes in that one. Any way, I am having fun with my YouTube channel and I am glad that so far I managed to get about 175 subscribers. It's not much, but who cares because I have no desire to instantly become famous. It's not about becoming the most popular reviewer and getting Gigguk or Glass Reflection to notice me- but it's basically about the journey and also how I get there. (Something I thought of while being in the washroom). I'll take my time and maybe in six or so years I will manage to become as successful as them. I also changed my YouTube name from 'FallOutPlue' to 'Cardcaptor'- which I am glad that I did. I did so cause Cardcaptor Sakura is the first anime I watched that has a special place in my heart. I gave my very first public exams this year and alhamdulillah I passed my O Levels with flying colours. Yes, I did get a B in ICT- but the fact I didn't cry or a throw temper tantrum just goes to show how much I have matured. I am glad that I have learned not to always be upset with how unfair life is- and that I now have the ability to move on. I successfully did manage to get an A* in English which I am incredibly proud of. Also, I got a tonne of money and food from it so I am good. After giving my O Levels, I graduated high school despite the fact I am still in Sunbeams (i know it sucks donkey balls). Graduation was okay I guess, but I was forced to wear a stupid saree nonetheless(again later in a holud- so bite me for that too). I was probably the only girl who didn't wear make-up or huge heels- but I am cool with that. I hated Dr Qadri's stories (so did everyone)- but I had fun singing- unlike everyone else. It was also the last time I saw Laila- which sucks cause I miss my fellow otaku. During July, I realized that maybe my family isn't as great as I thought to be. Turns out that creepy dude with the moustache(he deserves to be called much worse) cheated on my Fupi and married some other slut. Not only that, but Preetu left Tonmoy and Tonima cheated on Salman. Man, and I thought this much drama only happens in Hindi serials. I just wish my mother told me this earlier- and was direct with me from the start on why she has a problem with them. If I only knew, then maybe I wouldn't have villainized her like that early on. Also, I learned maybe my pure and kind hearted Mani may not be as great as I have been making her out to be. I guess, she is like a real life 'saas' like in those Hindi serials and my mother is the poor and helpless 'bahu'. I feel terrible I never understood all the pain she felt- but on the bright side she has someone as wonderful as my Dad. But, now I realize who matters the most in my life and I will stick by parents no matter what. Yesterday, I learned Propa got divorced which I kinda predicted. So, many people in my generation have failed in marriage- which makes me worry about my own fate. I am surprised that despite being in a brown household- they couldn't make a marriage work like their parents or grandparents did. So, for now I am being very anti-romantic as I got over Shoumik and I am not sure if I like Farhan. I don't think I want to get married and if I do can it please be someone like Kyon from 'The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya' or Rui Hanazawa from 'Hana Yori Dango'. Cause, those two are right now the reason why I am not completely asexual. But, my Mom says I don't have to worry about that crap for the next five years and I am not going to. Two weeks before getting my result- I ended up getting dengue. Don't worry, it wasn't anything too serious- but poor Shayaan was in a worse condition than me. Haha, I remember how much I cried cause I was scare of being hospitalized. I was such a wuss, because it was my first time being in a hospital. But, on the bright side I had a fun time relaxing and finish watching Pet Girl Sakurasho over there. The only sucky part was that I was having fun in a place- where we're dying, crying and suffering. It feels weird thinking about something like that. Also, I have been spending more time with my Dad- and I am glad I can finally be comfortable with him despite his disorder. I knew what he used to say and do scared me- but all in all he is an amazing father and I wouldn't trade him or Mummy for anybody. He even tried speaking up for me to Mrs Manzur because he cared so much about me. But, all I was upset about was the fact I almost got expelled because of him. I love him very much and I am grateful all the stuff he has done for me and my family. He truly is the best and I still live by my statement that I want to be amazing like him. This is also the big year I turned 18, meaning I am not a minor anymore. I don't feel old- but I want to be more mature and independent. I want to be more strong and make myself happy if I don't find a partner to do so. Because at the end of the day- it's important to love yourself. And I do love myself very much- because I am cute, funny, smart with awesome taste in anime (yeah let's not talk about Guilty Crown or Rosario+Vampire :P). I also started getting into Asian dramas and the very first Korean drama I watched was 'You're Beautiful'. I absolutely loved it to death and the romance was amazing. I also watched 'Cheer Up!" which was perfect along with two J-dramas called 'Hana Yori Dango' and Hana Kimi. I loved all four of them- but Hana Yori Dango is kind of like a guilty pleasure. I am planning to watch more dramas and hopefully by the end of 2016- I will become well versed in it. I recently subscribed to this new YouTube called Evan Edinger and he is pretty freaking awesome. From one of his videos- I realized that maybe I might be demisexual. It means that even though I am straight- I don't have sexual urges until I fully get to know a person. I guess, that's why unlike others- I am not interested in porn, hentai or losing my virginity any time soon. Like seriously all I want from a dude, is to share yummy food with me and talk about nerdy stuff (but not too nerdy). I don't think my parents won't mind if I tell them this- because it's not like I am interested in women. I thought I was because all these YouTube coming videos were scaring me- but trust me Jahan you only love boys. I mean, c'mon they are so cute- so why the heck not? :P You thought you might be, just because you have recently gained a habit of admiring and respecting women. It automatically doesn't equal you to being gay- stupid Jahan. Despite, being the anti-romantic hipster I am right now- I confessed to Fardeen on July 9th (yes, I remember the date lol)- a boy on whom I have been crushing on for about one and half year. I know it wasn't face to face and I just messaged him the entire confession- but I am proud I could do it. The importance of confessing is as equal to a white girl's importance of losing her importance. Then again ,I don't give two shits about sex! It's a huge deal for me though- I am glad Fardeen and I are on good terms. I was actually inspired by the anime 'Ore Monogatari' to confess to him. But, it does suck he doesn't see me as anyone important. However, I have decided to not sulk about it anymore( that and my friendship with Nazeefa) because inshallah I will find a man who will love and cherish me a lot. Hopefully, he will be like Kyon or Hanazawa Rui! After all these years- I have finally decided that I will indeed be a software engineer. I plan to create visual novels and make it more available to the mainstream audiences. But, in order to do that- I have to play some more. I want to get into a good university in Singapore or Malaysia and graduate with good grades. I want to then get a high paying job and start my very own anime/manga collection. I will buy an apartment and decorate my place with it like Chris Stuckmann did. I'll get posters, anime figures, original copies of DVDs and manga. Again, it's not about achieving it immediately- but the journey to how I achieve it. I swear doing all of that is so much better than stupid marriage. Then when I inshallah have enough money- I'll watch anime and read manga without feeling guilty about pirating it. If I can, then maybe I'll try to get a Fruits Basket or Gakuen Alice reboot- cause I love those two shows to death- along with the manga. New Year's Resolution:- - Study hard for A-Levels - Start a manga and anime collection -Try to lose weight (if you can that is) -Do well in SATs -Get into an awesome university -Upload more videos -Finish 'Christmas Cake Girl' Top 10 People Who Meant The Most To You In 2015:- 1)Mummy 2)Baba 3)Shayaan 4)Labonnya 5)Mallika 6)Razin 7)Afra 8)Fupi 9)Laila 10)Tafhim Honourable Mention:- Rashaad (my one and only coaching friend) My Top Ten Favourite Youtubers of 2015 1) Amanda Lee 2) Chris Stuckmann 3) Glass Reflection 4) Ryan Higa 5) Nooderella 6)The Anime Man 7)Superwoman 8)Evan Edinger 9)Shane Dawson 10)Pellek Honourable Mentions:- Emma Blackery, Maximbady My Top 5 Films of 2015 (Hardly Got To Watch Any Though) 1) The Martian 2) Inside Out 3) Mockingjay Part 2 4) Pitch Perfect 2 5) Paper Towns Honourable Mentions: Kingsman(hopefully,I will finish it) Top Five Anime of 2015 1) Death Parade 2) Noragami Aragoto 3) Shoukugeki No Soma 4) Ore Monogatari 5) Kamisama Hajememashita S2 Honourable Mentions:- One Punch Man, Durarara Top Five Favourite Songs (Hardly Got To Listen Any) 1) Uma Thurman- Fall Out Boy 2) Fourth of July- Fall Out Boy 3)Love Me Like You Do- Ellie Goulding 4) I Can't Feel My Face- The Weeknd 5) Heartbeat Song- Kelly Clarkson Honourable Mention:- Fight Song- Rachel Platten Top Five Anime Openings of 2015 (I swear this is the last one!) 1) Hey Kids- Noragami Aragoto 2) Brave Shine- Fate/Stay Night Unlimited Blade Works 3)Flyers- Death Parade 4)Bravely You- Charlotte 5) Akatsuki No Hana- Yona of the Dawn Honourable mentions:- Aoharu X Kikanjuu OP That's it all for now, and goddammit I hope I didn't forget anything. It took me a long time to write this and I really hope 2016 will be good to me too. And even if it wants to act like a shrew, I'll tame that bitch! (Whoa, I made a Shakespeare reference) Stay awesome Jahan, and I am sending you a picture of Shun Oguri. Hopefully, you still like the guy in the future! (Can only send you a link and not the actual picture cause reasons!) http://images2.fanpop.com/images/photos/6700000/hana-yori-dango-hana-yori-dango-6794623-600-399.jpg