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Dear FutureMe, Well, for one I guess that you have been stuck with the same emo email name for the past seven years. Will you laugh if I make a joke about Pete Wentz approving? No? Okay then. Considering the fact that you move through things so quickly, congrats on keeping an email name that long! And congratulations on keeping B as your friend for almost as long, because lord knows why she still wants to hang out with me NOW. Hopefully you've managed to con her into signing another lease on the apartment. Speaking of which, remember that two years ago (last year for me) you were hyperventilating about the fact that you would have to move out of your studio? And you hated your job, and were on your way to hating your "friends", and you thought that you would be stuck there forever? Remember how last year (presently, for me) you were in a whole other state, with completely different friends? And you still hated your job, but life can't be perfect. Do you remember that at the exact moment you were typing this you a) couldn't stop thinking about the fact that you needed a new wardrobe, and god hopefully I won't always be this materialistic, b) were about to go with B to a barbeque for people that you don't even know because you are trying to be less hermity, and c) aren't completely happy, but at least you're trying to make it all better. Because there was that time in the car that you remembered the last time you were happy was two years ago, and the time before that was when you were ten. And you realized that holy fucking sadness, batman, that was probably not a good sign. And you probably remember that around the time that you were writing this you still had long crying spells about random nothings, and you still wrote down that emo movie quote that you thought fit your life perfectly, but you knew, KNEW, that you could and were going to make it better. So listen, I am sending this to you in one years time. When you read this, I want you to think about these things: 1. Are you still a controlling, passive aggressive perfectionist? If so, why the fuck are you still like that? And stop looking at me like that, fuck you, you can change and I know it. 2. Have you lost your sense of humor yet? Don't. Never, ever lose that. 3. Are you happy with yourself yet? If not, don't be all disappointed by the fact that you're not, and don't go and have a crying jag. Shit takes time, you know that, and it's a long road before you will feel okay. I hope, though, that you've made a lot of strides. 4. Are you dating a greasy rocker person with tattoos? Do you still find that attractive? If so, go find a one night stand and get your fuck on! Life is too short. Love always, Me