A letter from April 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Two month ago February 18th 2019 was when you received the worst news you could possible have gotten, and your heart shattered and you felt like you were gonna die and nothing was worth moving on because how could the person you thought you were gonna spend your life with do something like this to you and how could you have trusted someone with your heart and put everything you had out there to just get it disrespected in your eyes. That was not only the day your heart broke but the day you realized you found something you claimed you never had which was your heart, I’m two month into all the pain that was happening and I can honestly say we’re gonna be okay and if we feel like we’re not please stop turning to drugs and deal with the emotions, once in a while is okay but eventually you have to STOP! I love you and I think that’s the first time I realized that I do ^ that’s literally the first time I’ve texted out to myself that I love you, your so beautiful and deserve so much more and I know that your in so much pain right now but it will get better and you will figure out what you want whether that’s a life with or without him. Please set your mind straight and get where you want to be, in 2025 I hope you’re thriving and you figured out what you wanted to do and your out there setting a life for yourself and it your not it’s okay move forward and thrive towards that goal, please don’t give up on us we’ve come this far from everything and you will be okay. Don’t settle for anything less, know your worth you deserve to be treated like a queen and not Secound guess things in your mind, if Juan’s in your life and he’s still doing **** to make you Secound guess it is not okay and I’m telling you right now to leave get out of there and find your person because if your still putting up with **** he’s not it, but if he’s proved to you he has changed then I’m proud of him and I’m glad you stayed and made the decision. Right now I’m currently fighting with my head and heart about what to do because I feel like I’m stuck in a position where I’m not ready to forgive juan but I’m not ready to let him go either, I love this boy and I probably will till the day I day. I just wanna be treated right, I want the person who’s gonna be my peace and who’s gonna make me feel like everything’s okay even when I feel it’s not I really want the person That’s in my head, and I hope we find him one day. I just wanna day I hope all things are good and I hope you put your faith in god because I really think that that’s what’s gonna get us out of this ******** hell that we’ve felt like we’ve been living in for forever and find that happiness within ourselves and we love ourselves. You will be okay Celeste <3