A letter from January 21st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hey, it's you again. Heh I feel like crying, past few months you been so sad, how do we escape reality SIKE we can't. Mann, I feel like this whole life is suffocating. we were really born to deal with this huh? childhood traumas and other follows. idkk girl, school has been tough too. I don't even know if it's for me. but I don't know what is. I like being on cameras buttt that's got be funny coz I don't have the confidence when im on it. I just want to escape the hard steps, but I don't have no choice but to go thru it. you have so much plans. ur business, traveling EVERYTHING! I hope when you get this ur in a different situation, environment. I hope ur doing good. please stop being sad. please follow what you really want. EXPLORE YOURSELF, stop looking for love out there, its starts within you. youth is gonna pass by smoothly MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT. stop being sad. I hope by this time, you'll always have something to look forward on to. I hope by this time, your tears are for happy moments only now. no more sad crying, no more sad thoughts, no more thinking of negativity. Now, Are you happy?

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Hey,

I am so sorry you went through this, I know how much **** you were through and how messed up it all was. You were just 20 years old,...

21 be to btoau.
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Be ear ni we btuao 24 23 dna to hmcra onw. Nwo ew i ertdnfief ma wo,n rae frntefedi. We rae tegorrns nwo.
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S'ti a wno lot 02,24 otl dna sha ewnh say yaeardl i yaer a ?lto headpnpe a.
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Sthmno rouy few ujst laehign tatdrse yuo htat 20(1),2 yrae a esam etrfa jneouyr. Yaes nto ti swa. Nhlcea elagihn our us was dha eomsnoe reh ni and nuyojre eedlph enam.
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Onaymer ihntg tn'od ouy at ycr. Rtehe moes :) niealgh gon,e erhe asmutra otms noskkc onw ,btu ee'rw lsilt of aer ruo nda.
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3 ldalei eeegrd og!cleel yuo thlaeh nescce)i nad egtrauadd of we na ecnsscei thoer asrecn(bh tiwh psalimdo aoetscsias ni hiwt datragude.
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Erwe gih,rt uoy ni i nwo ioautnist tfneirdef a ma. Avhe einagtunsrddn eritfnfde drowl, an noe nwo het and fo a iewv odog ew a.
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Os s'waht crreea su for lnoy as nda sspa rea ews?i ew nwo us will onw, s'it hmuc rnigtsta hgitr vnere oya,k nto.
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Ew ho utb laot g?tohrw wreg.
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Hree,t to eehrt tvldaree evidl we sataiular! ew we livde. And we 3202 elft omvrebne in 2022 gto ni cakb sah usjt. Saw hatt of swa e,npahped ourenjy veer hlgiane sartlauia aptr hintg oru it eth sbte. Easyr 22 tnew dol ta e,naol we eehtr. Yydsne, dokbmwenaa ni wsa eon ehtre itsh in tosp. Esr"reve rahfw ntmho elcdal sfitr ensic deyyns time oyu saw eth iverrda yb vdreosicde tujs netw a dyre" aclpe you it ni teh. Swa iemt ehert aws i ncamgil yeerv it teh ifeglen tmos. Swa icylaselep saw that a eirfnd idlifcfut keli reewh temsi weer on adys it ,ereht utsj. I i i three rveye wsa aws pphay ehrte og fetl tmsie emti to i eryev hmeo, ehlow sola das eht twen ub,t etmi i flet rhawf no wsa i dna wenh.
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Elki leepop ay,w we urwednfol meso hwo jtus emt us eht weer ogaln. Sleeovrsu asw hetm wlle ew sa ni. Npsratre dan lrdow detlavre mseetelsvh tehri nda emca life see eth yb how iwth ahd geufri rtfnfeied to ro meso cslaep rofm uot ot. Eno fo ienaghr ossetir in intmege bets si adn atfuebuil het fdrifneet gealvtirn tsighn suols. Wsa asw ti of i sayawl gtnmehsio fnod. Orom ehterwh or aws thiw a fo nfdeir be eewr,yvreeh corko,-rwe the einfrd eonosme i amde isrdnfe i mase ehtsol a it ni. A hucs hgtni it auitelbfu saw.
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Is oserufl leeadh etbs i to iroesvn ayer of i that our htsi eb dan sierpmso eekp ot ym dan etsb do to liwl laretv dan lnpsa vtalre eht to ehva nad be.
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Tis' dsa i gte sllit eionhgstm tno aer nact' enlhad eewhr ydsa ehtre ubt ew. Stuj at manuh be rea kyoa it's ?akyo we dsa to es,itm.
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Ot ew ma okay are tno ahypp? rwesan u,bt i uryo ,utnoiesq nwo yet. Estho i" peoh yaphp ays egt ot am swor,d iflynal noos i i. ".
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Ruo ndiebh lal am aevh isht resu gdo i yb eh ew ide,s wsa. Ot be htta nad lal npai elpac us to eht eth of he idtrncereoi bingr the ot ew a we went to sogdsneo era cleap poedsups wsa aedm ugothhr reehw resu. Ftiha peek o,s him adn tguinpt our trtsu lste' otni.
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Enog onw uoy dan teh the saee aesdsns anhkt self, lal eb all ofr akhtn ear ouy nac won lod arey won 02 uyo are for at ttah htat resat geno. Lla nca os i ma hurt onw ,og gitlnet og elt ew yuo teh. Btuoa efttigorgn does ti i am ton no yo,u nmea. Aslawy ouy rfroeev am be fo for rof you i a ugfelrat me, rapt lawsya eb llwi illw i oyu nda alfkuhtn.
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My efls nda dol i boegody loev yu,o.
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Mrof elts' be ,no wno haypp.