A letter from January 21st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hey, it's you again. Heh I feel like crying, past few months you been so sad, how do we escape reality SIKE we can't. Mann, I feel like this whole life is suffocating. we were really born to deal with this huh? childhood traumas and other follows. idkk girl, school has been tough too. I don't even know if it's for me. but I don't know what is. I like being on cameras buttt that's got be funny coz I don't have the confidence when im on it. I just want to escape the hard steps, but I don't have no choice but to go thru it. you have so much plans. ur business, traveling EVERYTHING! I hope when you get this ur in a different situation, environment. I hope ur doing good. please stop being sad. please follow what you really want. EXPLORE YOURSELF, stop looking for love out there, its starts within you. youth is gonna pass by smoothly MAKE THE MOST OUT OF IT. stop being sad. I hope by this time, you'll always have something to look forward on to. I hope by this time, your tears are for happy moments only now. no more sad crying, no more sad thoughts, no more thinking of negativity. Now, Are you happy?

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Hey,

I am so sorry you went through this, I know how much **** you were through and how messed up it all was. You were just 20 years old,...

Ot about 21 eb.
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Aer 42 arcmh eb adn we ot in own taubo 32. Tffednrei tefrfenid now ew rae am i ,won. Sortrneg now aer ew.
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Ays arye sha t?lo a tlo lrayead otl 'tis nwhe pdheenap 2,042 a i nad a nwo.
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Efw mase utjs uoy ahtt aedtrst nilhage a yoru aretf htomsn eyra ,(1220) jnroeyu. Ton ti asw asey. Lehdpe eanm ilngaeh ni and wsa hre ahd moeeons nehlca su rou yuenojr.
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Uoy od'tn ycr at nihgt myeroan. ,ubt samtaru adn ear erhe knoksc llsit won ienlahg seom of :) wree' rou smto eetrh en,og.
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Not oa,ky i?wes vnree o,wn ylno so spsa eercra su and sa rof won tsngrtia hcum ti's are ew illw a'wtsh hgtri su.
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Rewg ogh?wtr ho lato ew tbu.
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Aeltvred we theer velid ot ldeiv i!lusaaart ew ew ,ehetr. 2202 ckba ash dna vebmnero ni ni ew flte tgo tusj 2032. Htign ruo veer ratslaiau saw giehnal was ae,epnhdp etsb of uojeryn it the htat aprt. We heter tnew ta yesar anle,o 22 dol. Saw eno itsh aebdnoawkm den,ysy spot heetr ni ni. In hntmo awhfr wnte snice swa ocddeivrse dlealc ouy het by vseerr"e a yedr" oyu itfsr etmi ti het calep jsut readriv yensdy. I rhtee saw veery eilngef msot glancim saw meit it hte. Itmes wsa jstu it a saw eerw tath adsy nerfdi cpeeliaysl eehrw eilk tereh, tfcfdilui no. Fwarh i dna losa go temi i to aws ryeve ohem, i eitms hpyap ntew teh hnwe trehe teerh eltf meit ,tbu lhewo i i no revye i tlef saw dsa swa.
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Us eeplop olang we jstu emt fudrlwnoe reew woh omse ay,w eht eilk. Aws llwe ehmt as we in svuslroee. Dha teh htvseeemls ot lspace and htire uto fmor meac yb who see trarnsep eferntdif lowdr dna ro ldeartev feil fruige ot twhi omse. In the one and tseb trsesio tilagvern gehinra uitauelfb ssuol is hnstgi nemgtei dniefterf of. Mtioesgnh nfdo it swa fo i swa swayla. Ti heere,wevry eth fo redifn ni a senomeo wrooker,-c leohts eehrwth ro driefn i be ithw a eams moro eidfrns eadm i swa. Feiuulabt it aws a ngiht usch.
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Rltvea od to dna eray euolsrf be eromsisp teh best htat ot hedela llwi keep of nad nad i is haev ruo artvle ot my nplas dna osrevin eb tsih i ot bset.
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Nothesmgi ist' ew dleanh nt'ac sad erteh otn are utb teg i ltlsi ysad rweeh. It's esimt, ads era akoy ahmun to eb ?kyoa tujs we ta.
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Rea nrweas ot ayphp? uyor ,utb eqtnisu,o kyoa nto tye i nwo we ma. Noos i nlaylif poeh "i ,dowsr i get ysa hoset ot ma hapyp. ".
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He i seur aws ma all uor ahve we dbhien dsie, ihts ogd by. Ohtrguh aws eht all napi of uers ew ot to rreniodcite aer us eht to clpae claep nda ew a eb emda bgrni eh ot rewhe opssdupe atht went egdonsos hte. O,s adn hmi fahti keep rou tutnpig e'tsl onit utrts.
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Taht wno s,efl eht onw nca ntkha that aer ogen eb tsare oyu at 20 ogne lla esnadss for lod era eaes eyar tnkah dan onw for lal uoy oyu eth. We am ,go own tltgnie so lal trhu anc eth i etl you og. Ma oy,u nrtgfgotie nema tauob on nto sdoe i ti. And slywaa afltnuhk uyo oyu ywslaa e,m a gelfraut llwi i fro uoy fo ofr lwil ma i eb roervef arpt be.
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Odl dbgyooe ym and you, vloe fsle i.
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Be wno lt'es pyhpa omfr no,.