A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Teh the ta the yrdawo,o hte my dgee tlisl asw fo fo kabc hnasd eiomsipdntnpta sslac rcnoer nare ihctcnulg sp,li ta teas ym hotb tuserl. .
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Orf ltreter,iau ofr tesymrh,ci gneise rof fo jsbutce aws unnrtteofua olnesss, tfioareuv to nuhrgisc tdneta llraey tsmo ym l,al adn a d a c c a ypshics. Ctdeeepx do elwl rof ubt uthtogh i nrvee i to ta ssi,cecen loudc i ym tebetr do ardeg a lseat. Eruelritat sa fro. . . Uoy wehn iq what obefre i my ot'nd" a will meax: my we yda btho fdiren reh nicutlstanoo wo,yrr wei datenetd elcral me aceterh iurrleatte do "efni nad tli ltod. ,rhteo and ,a oscdre a ety so not oen su h'sse og,rnw c teh fo na worgn uecsbea. Awht i ubt is ubtsejc ehr?)et es(e tcvjusbiee tlsil to tirautrlee idd de,agr seu,r a. . . Reagd fo i het fele dignpnoptaisi tmos tou sith l,al aws. Mefsyl repes i ressst t?wah lelyra otps dna ym onkw uot aveh to eyflsm tog goacnprmi aangi oyu to before i. Ehert wyaals eb eolepp em edmbur lwil hatn woh epople are nad ear woh m,e sreamrt ahnt. 'rewe sa as niebg si long dgoo hugneo pyhpa eeavrag. Ostp hsti styith ets'l re,iylosus sleeap abt,hi.
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Hiwhc i oot oto ton ta of yshtglil 75 ieerth udlosh not rkan veoab potsni areeavg a ttha cs,eor oecrsd ba,d 90, ogod ntoip, i ryclafi uycalatl is tsih uto. .
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Eatppaeicr sa i tafre ro khcsdeo dya a gserad ecpatc mogn,ip muhc i ,ipasoptednid elft ym otw fo eamc eevn sa and ot. Eptcn,udxee bgaaurly esru asdreg ofr hetse orf ae,rpp otms an and !oot aevh a tow enve shmta i rdesco tsbeujc eth a cfiitfuld lgranee erew ot orf so,ecr. Su nca erllya veleebi eehst hte rof eerw ni tht?a oyu orcdes tow eevr bjustcse a igehsth i clhsoo rpodu ,c fo am iv'e. Lrtyu. .
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Taht nsugmia na ctaf on a eirthe lol ot c/d, tanw out wbeenet potin i ni i ro laos eth oesrc. Larely i ogod ta kucs, 'mi ro ti eitrhe. S'that i ma, uesgs owh i.
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A siisvutreine nruyc,to htsi 5,7 there ot i a my of sbigetg sitrf in ldipepa pr sa eht ni jamor ncomtomicunai hitw with eohcic. Nda dreffoe aws clelmyopte isatnde i odcsen ym for asw by u,sn sigl,oooyc iho,ecc nut ejrtceed ,etfuynuatrnol. Dffeeor me ,msu ,nmheiwela usnbessi tenmeagman. .
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Ihwt s,eik" tno ngol rdmae a "uyo alinfly eon asrye - adh cimoscuntianmo eth tghneeei usevenri whne d,rema up dais nad for i ynnfu a hwo epsuru ot mcea a enev of rneve sec,ruo gdeeer i ym eli,f gib to a noep - in. .
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End i ddecied teh to tcecpa ni mtnaenagme het usisbesn eucosr. In ehppsar siht ntaw het ldea to ulcod me tefruu tlsil ewher i be ot.
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Itfrs otegnt edocsn hoicce ehcoic, in neerv yam thsi ubt feil my ym eb ynayaw ym 'vie. My gte ,sgayerlnt i iocehc ocedsn sywaal. Oh wlel. E'ons'sar invied a or e,tinrnnveito ,athp xscue'es' all em to ahepspr up prehsap fo maec ymefsl ro tusj rmotocf awth tiwh to tis' i are rtbtee gndlaei 'ist epashrp teehs. .
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Tls'e plucfaeley ot and stuj rndwo taflo 'mi nto tcrneru het aasylw asy, ?atertm deso rty em leik awth we ereevhrw ,to vartewhe ,on ti tahp scirare. Yhapp 'stle be. Ah'tts sak i lla rfo cna. .
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Evo,l.
Tfueuerm.
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P. S. I ma mi' ordpu of ,su rlaley. Konw dkwore dan fsofetr hrda i orf ith,s tou owh t'wno we cdniosut i. Iefl !no geos.