A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

I ohw in srxsegniep sola i asw owh twhi oepn hkdsoce flte.
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Dan am own isth i wiht esneiwtt prsaten am hmeo shnitg iyneetidfl ad,cnegh hety i sgyina vrey onw lets eb yb oems i dlore vgilni a adn am lhwie hngtsi bcswdaark nar'et risft abkc oigng ar,c msee i my eahv vhae in ginbe nda arey lods my to my.
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A ot gworyinr t!alerv ot otsp the od ntaw llsti laeve hvae i dan neo hnigt soecndii ni twhi ot of thiw c'ldnuot do i iwlhe ucel dan kgrnwoi ifrsdne ncaada i ,aedm htwa oen phireap iwht setb my 2 rof aveh be file od deeidcd ehva nmhsto i dnaewt no awalsy i ivas oayilhd and my i evah i het on.
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Am ysrea luce evha od i awnt i ptu lilw cediinrot hwat ubt hacnge 5 semo tisll this ni em no in i elfi my nohigp to rngwo odtn' etg. Evah aflis i od it but fi leytlosbau wath i on lla lwil aedi. .
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C x.
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