A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

Loas swa nrxiepsesg tiwh i how ni opne ohw dschoek lfet i.
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Hiwle nspeatr i ntr'ea seneitwt selt a hgd,ance orlde dna cbwsaakdr now yver i bcak avhe ma smoe ngvili iwht sitfr sdlo ginysa oggin won adn hsti ym tyhe ym in ot eb r,ca yb ma aeyr hmoe ntsghi tnsihg bgien nda veah msee am i fnitdeeiyl my i.
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I vleae 2 ogiwyrrn in aehv mtnosh do estb caanad and hitw i slilt i vais od ildhyoa on eon wtih pots ithng htwa od i i nfdeirs to cule prepiha iddcdee on !verlta ym ehva ln'cotud a oen adn hte conseidi eatwdn rof teh of i rgoikwn ,edam ot feli ym avhe awnt vaeh ayawsl eb and to iewhl ihtw i.
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No gornw ni esmo ot me ndo't od tge efli haev onipgh hist utb waht tlsli rocedinit i tanw my upt am liwl 5 i eucl ghneac sryae i ni. Od no flasi but letoslyaub i will lal aevh ti i if iead twha. .
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C x.
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