A letter from Jun 25, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are already healed or maybe already healing. Nag-usap kayo ni James kagabi. Sabi niya na kailangan mo muna mag heal. He also told you that the spark wasn't there anymore. It hurts, of course. I want to be with James. I can imagine a future with him—but I guess I was the only one imagining. I don't know what to do. I don't even have someone to talk to about these issues. My heart keeps beating fast because I can see that this will end soon. I want it to keep going, but if it needs to stop for both of our sake, then I guess I just have to accept it. Be on our own separate ways and fly. Thank you James for the wonderful experience you gave.

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Dear Future Me,

I'm happy to tell you na nakawala ka na sa kaniya....

Ubcseea uhpofel an gpteenixc rolyeufs a ouy uyo tub na weer nga sitll dngnei, eeercnxeip utlayevlne, was and gerondud aoky arleyit hapyp got it sa rdah. .
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Na na iddedec mtaa yian ysao noaubaasp-g nyug yuo. On now na nri eh's hsi apyph. Dah na olrcues ugsy ouy. .
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Enw yuo aerhotn snw!e eemsoon heva targe. Yug maesj errayp si hse' teh ikle anwseedr an nwe a keil sppteoio sbceuea ifgt ro rof fo you isth. .
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A ilug wuodlrfne shuc is ntrapre. Ttha yuo het cimatonciunmo et,mi so fi well ihst ugys begni are --- oen si idsed tiomccnouanmi ni spt,a the umnaimtgniocc --- is eopaclircr hte vahe uoy. .
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Seh' erutma olas vrye. Srignb hwti teh bste i sacubee uot in giebn ihm eh me elvo. .