A letter from Nov 14, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, how’s life going? are you feeling happier with yourself?❤️‍🩹 have you stopped smoking yet lol? did you learn how to roll a blunt properly? how was ur a-level results?!!!!!!! what uni are you going to and how is it? i hope you reconciled with Maggie bc i don’t have the strength to apologise to her when im so angry atm. are you still in contact with the ogs? yk i can’t imagine separating from M (it’s been 10 years since she’s become my bestfriend!!). but how is L, is she healthy and happy now? ➡️if not in contact (☹️) have you made any new friends in uni? its hard for me in college to become close to people when no-one has the same timetable as you? did you ever manage to keep my room clean and stop procrastinating? do you have a new job? do you still model? i hope you have built up your confidence and learnt to walk in heals! did you ever get the adhd diagnosis? it’s been 2 years for me ugh. also please play piano again pls pls pick it back up. xoxo past girl

Epilogue

about 20 hours later

hey baby me,

I am currently writing this unemployed, living off student loan and having failed first year.
You were so right on about that ADHD diagnosis girl so no...

Reft edne to. I eanht’v eranlt sgmkino who deosppt no btu rlpo-lre to i aveh. Ubt mtaetr **** ea-lvle one’dst cb llwi uyo ti oechci uni luesrts ayanwy yuor teg eewr otin rsfti. Toh ’ndto edu nwo tno ot soeurc usaeceb ckcoy your hwo no yb teg ehva uyo arhd ot oot teg si kereat to uryo ti ireliasgn ilwl. .
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You evern cereilocn het tofrmoc het sa wtih bkca lliw na ggiema dan edam sdeu seh birgn oyallacocsin imss ot evenr she ofrfet psirinefdh but yuo. Eth fmor ni l dna noyl won koay phayp si dna uhcm oyu era khatn elthyha tihw hoidcoldh !!gdo!! etptyr l tub yast tt’sah conttca m elpope. Ni nyma hvae oodg inu ni you are ucsh new and so kyulc veah to afttsealm deam nsdiref etyfs-arir. .
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Is’t the emssy teh asrtrtnpcooiani room odgo utb thwi snidiagos ebba dna neirvganwu kseew mseo na cmose. It dptpsoe fmor gldlenoim uhcm i vhae fnonceecdi haev ubt i deagin so.
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Si aevhire on clekif vyer eth ,oent pnieasshp. Ni of dan tsk(uc a ni bde ti nda sutkc infd tge rn) iteesmsmo of rosepsedin ipt ni sthi ilngiv tge iirwtgn liwl edb oyu uto tae ot radh rmsod. Elki em aayw hsa itwh lla ti felse tlef meit nihbde a cdlhhoiod my yares and ’tnis form softpseot owt anr long eyt ynlo. Hmet lifl pu we nac omoewsh utohhg. A vhea ocme uryo dan ot it mveo uoy lfee otbh you but otn skame teh lliw elanr htat ’sti souesh home on will rspanet soort eetomimss lkie oehsu. Owbl lwil i uoy adrh all gitth geedbg enoym fo get i adn gvsians reyv ot our ont ohnueg hswi.
P. S. Tye on a ipnao oecm to geb ear lilts tyeh shoet eflursyo sleonss ttiell daerhr.
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Wfalu eenv kacb lihsnuocg( ittgrahs ehda nad pu ******* oryu ckba you p)ain shtgeiratr lhod ivge ruyo lwli.
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Lgri fuuret xoxo.