A letter from Nov 14, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, how’s life going? are you feeling happier with yourself?❤️‍🩹 have you stopped smoking yet lol? did you learn how to roll a blunt properly? how was ur a-level results?!!!!!!! what uni are you going to and how is it? i hope you reconciled with Maggie bc i don’t have the strength to apologise to her when im so angry atm. are you still in contact with the ogs? yk i can’t imagine separating from M (it’s been 10 years since she’s become my bestfriend!!). but how is L, is she healthy and happy now? ➡️if not in contact (☹️) have you made any new friends in uni? its hard for me in college to become close to people when no-one has the same timetable as you? did you ever manage to keep my room clean and stop procrastinating? do you have a new job? do you still model? i hope you have built up your confidence and learnt to walk in heals! did you ever get the adhd diagnosis? it’s been 2 years for me ugh. also please play piano again pls pls pick it back up. xoxo past girl

Epilogue

about 20 hours later

hey baby me,

I am currently writing this unemployed, living off student loan and having failed first year.
You were so right on about that ADHD diagnosis girl so no...

To rtef eedn. H’vtnae msnokgi i on spetodp owh utb vhea perolr-l to tanelr i. Rsfti bc wlli uestslr uyo uoyr tge erwe ev-lale tne’sod cchieo uin ti utb awyany emttar ntoi ****. Eursco eerkat etg oto oury wlli lgiresian to teg hot on cyock it you avhe oryu woh to hrda yb ot ude ’ndto wno ton uescbea si. .
.
Revne ouy an btu nyasalclicoo ehs ssim eceicronl mtcforo eervn isnfrhpdie roftef as ginrb you ackb used to aggime esh illw eth eamd dan tiwh eth. Chum rea hpyap l !!!!god oeelpp nwo is m the tsay koya ktahn aheylth l dan htiw tcaonct noly tbu dna diohhlcdo mofr tpyert t’tsah uoy in. Trsi-eafyr dgoo inu edam nwe to and veah are aaftstelm lyuck ni erfnsid hsuc yanm evah so ni you. .
.
Seewk msoec bbea mseo gdoo tub het oorm hitw hte dna ’its uirenanvwg ssdgioian aacrntoprisiton na ysmse. Chmu rofm ti i psptdeo vhae aevh coeefcdnni i endiag so btu nmlieolgd.
.
Neo,t no eth si ifleck yver hiraeve speasipnh. N)r egt deb bde a in fo fo pti tge emssietom edsonpiser find smord tsih yuo llwi nad uot in to ngiilv in eat dan hadr tkuc(s ctksu gritniw it. Ym otw yaaw tfpooests lla sah sarey ogln mfor etim me lnyo ltfe lkie enibhd anr dna yte it a hihcoodld lefes sit’n wtih. Lfli hemt we up thhuog nac hwosome. It aemsk utb ceom ttha rsatnpe you ohtb on yuo ovem oushe home ikle ortso naelr to uory dan eefl hte ti’s otn eahv lwil uosseh wlil teimssemo a. Ruo lobw lla ttigh gonueh shiw omyen i you to rahd egbged tge ilwl fo eyvr i aingssv nda tno.
P. S. Gbe no era oipna to a cemo ueyfslro ythe ety tiltel thoes eolssns hdrrea llsit.
.
Arhtirgest uafwl oyru ihslo(cgnu p)ani lwli you cbak yruo ******* up odhl haed gathtisr ivge nda neve akbc.
.
Euufrt xoxo rilg.