A letter from Jun 07, 2024

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I'm leaving for PortHarcourt today but around 6am hopefully and I wish I didn't have to leave. I love Abuja so much and I'm uncertain about my life as an unemployed person in PortHarcourt. I'm scared because very soon my future would be in my hands, I thought I would be more excited than this but I feel... nothing except uncertainty. I am disappointed in my self, I don't know if it's a deliberate means of sabotaging my self but I haven't done anything, I have not read, I have been on social media and I have been eating a lot. I really don't know what to do. Nothing has changed from my previous letters, I'm still uncertain and I still procrastinate. I don't know Lord. My relationship with God is shaky, I regret a lot of things especially not living PortHarcourt, I became complacent there but it is what it is now.