Hello, future me!

How are you? This is past me, living with past bro and past family, currently having a decent life. I'm still studying! I'm trying to get by, but I find that I'm too lazy! What's up with that? Do you ever get lazy? Anyways, I'm writing this message cause I just want to know how far you've come. Right now I'm living a content life, trying to just ride the waves. But I don't know where they're headed to, you know? I dream I'll end up hitting an island with diamonds and hot girls and stuff, but I doubt dreaming will get me anywhere. I don't want to just ride the wave. I want to control the current itself. Do you know how to do that? I'm still studying right now. BS Electrical Engineering. I don't know why I picked this course to be honest. Past dad's debt is big, and if I follow this line of work, I might just have to deal with that. But... money right? That's the root of it all. That's why we study. That's why we work. That's why I try to study so hard, even if I inevitably lounge off to the internet. I don't have a girlfriend. I don't have much friends. But the friends I do have, I try to treasure by only talking to them when I find something to talk about. That is very rare. I am a very boring person, I think. How do you change that? How do you suddenly become interesting if you can't break out of this shell of fear? I hate how everyone has eyes that can see my failures. I wonder if they still remember mine, or they have forgotten, since they deem me unimportant. I don't know which possibility's worse. Anyways, future self! I don't know what you're doing there. I don't know where you are in life. But I hope you read this. I hope you remember this time in your life, and then end up being able to laugh about it. Happy 24th birthday.