A letter from February 28th, 2014

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, You're 26 today, congratulations. I am not doin to hot right now but all I can think about is you. The hardship I endure today is for you. The day when I finally know what my calling is and act upon it. I hope you are still working with children, I hope Jeremy is happy, and I bet Julianna is the prettiest 14 year old on the face of the planet. And I bet you have a really hot guy in your life and if you just groaned at that sentence our prince is probably lost somewhere, but he'll find us. But there are two things that I want done by the time I'm your age and if you got sidetracked by reality, just do these for me: 1: Deliver The Letter. I know the date inside says 2013 but it needs to get to it's owner. I don't care where he is right now. 2: Please tell me you traveled. Now I know you so well that I am betting that if I didn't do it you winced and then was filled with regret and then you will try to rationalize not going with something like "But you don't understand little Jenna, I have bills (and probably college loans to pay off)!" Yea, that's not flying. Just do it. Go to Scotland. See a castle. Check out them fairy pools on the Isle of Skye. Geek out at the Sherlock Holmes museum. Recite Sonnet 116 at the Globe Theater. Geek out again at the Doctor Who museum. Do it for me and all the hard days I'm spending dreaming of the day I don't live at home anymore. Or maybe I never figured out what I want to do with my life. Maybe God has thrown a boomerang at my life and I haven't recovered (very likely). Maybe I'm living in the basement. Maybe I have no money. Maybe the entire world has been taken over by cyborg robot squirrels. Maybe I'm dead. Maybe I died in the service of my country defeating the last infantry of the cyborg robot squirrels on the lawn of the White House dying heroically by sacrificing myself to take out the last evil squirrel with their blinking evil red cyborg eyes knowing that without taking out that last squirrel that that one squirrel would immediately make 12,000 more of the demons and that it was my sacrifice alone that brought them down. Maybe the nation erects a monument in my name for my epic sacrifice. Maybe I sell that idea to Disney and Cyborg Robot Squirrels becomes the blockbuster film in 2020 that teaches not just honor and bravery, but also the power of friendship. Or maybe not...But hopefully I'll still like quotes... I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Epilogue

almost 2 years later

Dear Past Me,

God, I wish I could talk to you and actually deliver this message. You were going through so much and felt so alone. I wish I could...

I ma oyu oprud uoy ohw lelt fo. Efi,l eacf yamn os ni way of so obseatscl odnfu ni ogstnr eerw oyu rouy hte uoyr nbgie utb you. Elhwi koto it a. .
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Aemd ady twhi utdargae with napsl glceleo gsedere my uyo stciaosae we tsmsar'e ni tow uoy bcka neo duyst aveh hbaleocsr bsiosylp tno, get nda lahu!g hcwih eleivbe og niuocngtca my ro to lowud nda it. Tgrhi laenlgbi ni on,w fetfredin a i'm mpecetyoll de,lif oodf. Ta r,hee jnryoeu gniasrt a eht kbca ti aeeclr off lla yap dlwi xebso of get estho ubt odes msgiornn ot wsa. Ttah tis' im' wiht htiw iefn ercihdln ieyteflidn eyomrna tbu tnod' rkwo i.
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Erjmye papyh si. Erev aephrpi hnat. Ry!sea ihst 01 laso rfaet lnlfayi tudardgae ryae eh.
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Liuajnna a oseg onw ysad j yb. Tetdelna dan ynactslnto are igronfg 'eyerht sannieyl itfublaeu rieht own adn apht.
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Nleidrbice is htgnsi oems !aaksal in adn reclntuyr odgin oyj is.
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Veha he a cirepn pohed rof nda ieyvthgenr do uoy si veer we duclo fidn. And eterbt erda velo its' teh we ntha r'ewe esnolv lal ni. Tuo ubt uo'yve ttah pu orbefe kiel eapcl den and nebe ovmgin ohem eefsl od ot renve oyu vgmoni a. Sbet htkni reve i ve'ew the ioiecdns eamd 'ist.
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Snisuebs to em fro ouy nsi:fhi hte nawdet.
Revieddel hte we sleettr 1:. Eno astl ereyv. In nporse.
Ot i i eivgnhyrte ouy :2 in 8201 lteavr did wadnte did and to nldnoo em. Teh umsm,ue olt ewhol woh orcdto ct,lase. Atht erohts eomr eanlvgitr irpt rfo snapl sa nad as i well od i avhe osem ot eoph tncdlosa akte. .
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Rsfuoley otn eth trobo rof fo lriquser ratmet oyu ouy ,ihst rwee tub nkgthnii ysawla oopirtn hwat user no rwee ygrobc wtah. Kquyri yuor ahspe in ""xd evne. Elyral fro ihwch act'n lufta i ouy. Swa hvea reom dowlr ntha a medpinac efnedfrti lervdie uclod idd os einmadgi ni the rtltee sthi yuo tedyfilien. .
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Veo,l.
Njane.