A letter from April 19th, 2014

Hello future me, I just got a letter from myself two years ago, and it was really funny. I was in Spain at the time, curious about what I was doing (and guessed TFA correctly -- haha), and just wanted to make sure futureme was happy. I wasn't even 21 yet and now I'm almost 23. That's frightening. Right now, life is at one of the lowest points I've ever felt. It's funny, because I know by the time I read this, all of this is going to be a very distant memory. I chose to send this on your 30th birthday because hopefully there will be a sense of stability in your life! Not like now. Teaching at Earlington is a wonderful yet horrible experience. Everyday is a struggle. Yet all the people I work with (Valdes, Javier, Coello, Montano, Stone, and Tellez) are amazing. By this time, your students will be 16-18 years old. That's frightening. Miami is quite the city. It's always bustling but yet always so empty. Having only five friends is really taking a toll on my sanity. You know when two people are each other's person? I don't think I have a person here. Adrienne is my closest friend, but she's closer with Kathy. Kathy is great, but I don't think she sees me as a permanent friend. I offered her to take my place babysitting one time and now she's replaced me as the kids' babysitter. I bet you're going to laugh about how petty that is, but it's just showing me that she cares more about money than our friendship, you know? Liz... Liz and I don't get along 100% and she hates how messy I am. Courtney is great when she's on, and Caiti is just Caiti. Who of these people will I be friends with when I'm 30? My guess honestly is maybe Adrienne and Kathy at best. Most likely none. I wonder if you'll have made it back to Ann Arbor by now. Are you married? i hope you're seriously dating someone/engaged/married by now. I know I'm not going to find anyone in Miami... biological clock is ticking!! I won't be out of here until I'm 24. Ugh. TFA as an organization is horrible. I wonder if they're still horrible. Maybe it will be dying out by 2021. There are 48 more days until school is over. I can't believe it but I also cannot wait. Back to Ann Arbor for the summer! Hopefully you're skinny now too. This process sucks. I need to lose 20 lbs........ ugh. It's hard. Well, happy birthday. Are you 30, flirty, and thriving??? Here's hoping so. Hopefully you have someone to share this with! Love, me